Cigarette Memories

Night sky burning with my vulnerabilities

I see my being rising up in flares

Slow at first

And then it sets ablaze

As I inhale 

Your words that meant a lot

And my naivety as an afterthought

The smoke of our moments inside my mouth

I clench them together

Till my eyes begin to sting

And mist begins to form in their crevice

As I try, I try

To imprison the hazy memories inside my lungs

They smolder me incapable

To breathe, to exist

A bond that ‘once’ was

Begins to seethe

And I choke on my gullibility

And your latent abilities

While I finally release you from me

Trailing behind is the ashen taste

Of bluntness that could nip associations

A bond that was envy of the town

Which now

Has slowly died a slow death

How I wish

Terminal worries too could be exhaled in thin air

Right there one moment

Becoming invisible the next one

A bond that was an intoxication

Left behind a bitter aftertaste

That scuffled with other senses

Blinding, effacing, burning

A ‘me’ a ‘you’ and maybe an ‘us’ too!