Sunday, 28 December 2014

The 'Attachments'

You can't save me. Nobody can. I know you are concerned. I can sense that concern in your actions and words; sometimes words aren’t even necessary. I can sense that in the way you look at me when I say something really casual. But that 'casual' has deeper meanings which mostly people around don’t understand. But fortunately or otherwise, you do.

I also know you are attached. So am I. But that's the word I dread these days. 'Attachment'. You know why? Coz it weakens me. This 'attachment'. For people, this sense of attachment becomes their strength. It was mine too; at one point of time. Not anymore though. Every attachment weakens me today. Because of my inherent nature, I have the habit of holding my 'attachments' fervently, carefully weaving them in my thoughts and life, making a brilliant pattern out of them and with them, the one that only I can understand and admire. But I also know they are weak links inside me. I become undone like any woolen fabric when you pull a string of its intricately woven design. Because, every string is attached to another and it is the combined strength of these strings that hold the fabric together. My 'attachments' hold me too. But every single 'attachment' I seem to have is also like that string in the woolen fabric which has the power to pull me apart. And I dread, that at the end of it all, I am going to be nothing but a quagmire of unwoven strings, messed in itself to an extent where it becomes almost impossible to untangle it, to make any sense or purpose out of it.

I know you want to help me. But you shouldn’t. I have to fight my own battles. I have fought them till now. I know I haven’t won all of them. But I have fought, sometimes thoughtfully and sometimes otherwise. And I shall continue them. 

Besides, there is not a long way to go anymore. The destination lurks nearby. I can sense it, feel it, maybe I would be able to see it soon. But before I reach there, I need to pull all my strings back to myself, start the process of detachment and stop letting myself getting undone anymore. Because when it is time to leave, I do not wish to be held back by the combined strength of these strings.      




Written for Three Word Wednesday Week No. 407 – Brilliant, Fervent, Thoughtful

30 comments:

  1. Detachment and attachment are perhaps two sided because we can't live with them. Brilliant:)

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    1. Thank you Vishal. Glad you liked this.

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  2. I love the way you have used the words here :)

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  3. A nice story woven ...using the words... :-)

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  4. One couldn't have used the words in a better way.
    And yes, we all have to fight our own battles.

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    1. Glad you liked it Red. Yes.. we all should fight our own battles.

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  5. I just love these posts of yours ... so deep and reflective ... you are one awesome writer :-)

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    1. And your comments always bring a smile on my face. Thank you Amrit :)

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  6. Hi. I really enjoyed my brief visit on your site and I’ll be sure to be back for more.
    Can I contact you through email address?

    Please email me back.

    Thanks!
    Kevin
    kevincollins1011 gmail.com

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    1. Thanks for visiting Kevin. Glad you liked my blog. Please come back for more :)

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  7. Love the beginning of your post and the way you have described attachment and care, I feel you were writing my experiences.

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    1. Thank you Saru. Glad you could find a connect here.

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  8. Thoughtful! Many can relate to this...there are "some" attachments that pulls us from going forward and there are other "some " without which we can't move forward. Written well!

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    1. Thanks Uma. And yes.. agree to what you say.

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  9. it is the danger of attachment...each string takes abit more of our freedom...
    so we have to choose the right ones....smiles.

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    1. Yup.. we need to choose the right ones.. Thanks for visiting Brian :)

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  10. Detachment is the toughest...
    Very nicely written!

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  11. The post makes one ponder over the risks of attachment and difficulty to acquire detachment

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    1. Detachment sure is difficult. So, I guess we must choose our attachments well.. But then, can we actually choose?

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  12. Wonderful weave of words.
    I'm here after a while and am glad to see an attachment here. brilliant piece of writing. :)

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    1. Thank you Meera. Glad to see you back here :) Actually, even I was on a hiatus with my writing.

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